Poetry By Marcus

The evidence of my confidence Lies in my innocence. My area of residence, I give precedences And show acceptance To those with diligence. Have no room for negligence, Show indifference to my opposition. Don't give a damn About the condition. Close my eyes, show no conviction. Walk with confidence In this world, my residence. With an empowered mindset And a silent presence, I stand and watch Those cower in fear. I am reminded Of my past self, Broken and driven By fear. But out of the shadows, A new presence resides. I wasn't born with it, It was something I had to learn, Something I now teach. Though hidden, My confident stride Can never be taken.

My life story is a tragedy, From 1 to 18, a miracle. A lot of things could have put me six feet under, Ain't that sinful? Put up a facade to hide the depression, Cause how can it be, before the age of 5, Already almost died twice? I sit in the corner and hide my pain, And everything that can make me go insane. Meet my gaze and you'll see the disguise  You think you know me, you don't know the darkness within. The truth is, I'm a controversial guy, With a complicated mind. I'm under so much pressure, This anger I try to measure. The level of depression, it got me showing, Different expressions. Shadows cast my face hiding different emotions, In the shadow my heart lies. In the shadows, on this night, I'm just trying to make it right, Though broken I remain alone,  In the shadows, I remain fractured.

If it's lost I couldn't continue, To give up the game, I can never, Even if it costs me you. I'll never give it up, Cause before you were in my life, The game was there before, Not months, Am talking years, After years, It never left me, The memories legendary, To part ways now imaginary, Never one to hold on to the past, But the game, Is the only good thing about it, The only thing that stands out, The only thing that remains. The only thing that brought me joy, In a joyless world, Where pain was all I felt,  The game, Changed my fate. And brought me great wealth, When I had nothing, When no door was open,  The game gave me one.  So to give it up, I can never, To leave it behind, Imaginary. So if you hope to leave me, On this dark night, The door is opened, But hope you're Not consumed by the darkness  That lies and wait. For if you Truly love me, The game, You will embrace.

I am one, So they claim, To make others believe.  That's the aim. In the hospital,  I call a friend, Woke up one day.  Enough is enough! I train, I train,  I fight for the right To stand on my own. I need no support, I need myself to get stronger, to get better. I've been the victim for too long, It's like my life is fated to dull. With a fractured skull, I am put down, But I get back up. I'll fight, I'll live, and I'll fulfill The desires that drives me,  that lurk within me. And till they are fulfilled,  I'll never fall victim.

The first time I felt her lips on mine, It really got me thinking Man I love this feeling Just for me to open my eyes And wake up to reality,  Then I ask myself, Was it just a fantacy,  Then I looked out the window. Hoping it was a memory Because how can someone So beautiful, so excellent Be nothing more but a fantasy. Then one day I saw her, The girl from my fantasy, Standing on a balcony, Seeing her in person. I thought I was loosing my sanity, But then the closer I got,  The more she looked like,  The one that got away, Turn's out the girl in my fantasy. Was the girl I could never bring myself To tell I love her, Thinking she forgot me, She screamed my name And ran to hug me, The moment she did that,  All those feelings came rushing back like ecstasy, I told myself this is insanity. But one deep breath later And we are taking a stroll under the stars  Catching up on all the time we've lost And finally telling her I love her.    And once she sai...

Shining and glamorous,  But none compare's, To the smile on your face,  I wonder why you're not famous. But I'm glad I have you all to myself,  My one, my only, The jewels of the world I have none, By your expressions, priceless. I cannot live without, My dreams, My desires, Revolve around you,  But you do not look too pleased, A sense of uncertainty I see, I can't talk about my feelings, But I try to express them in my actions  My heart, You hold the keys, And I don't know where it lies, So in your hands, I lay my head. Till you find the keys, I'm yours,  Always and forever.

Uprooted from my residence By those claiming to work for Mr. President. Better start talking, Before I give you a beating. I know my worth, Don't question my intelligence. An abuse of power, It seems. No formal identification. A lively night, Turned to a shallow one. And after all I’ve been through, All I get is an apology? People telling me, "Stay calm." Officers on defense Against a man in his own home On a Friday night. The law you claim to work for? The same law you’ll be up against. On your knees. Begging. For mercy. Remember, I screamed for my innocence. With your foot on my neck, You smile, Now I smile, As I take all you have. I share my views with no one but myself. I swallow my pride Just so I don’t become A victim of your negligence. To those with power, Remember your oath. To serve and protect. Not to harass and harm. Do what you were trained to do. Do not put young men in the grave At an early age, Just because you thought. Innocent till proven guilty. Innocen...

I see the stars as I fall to my doom, Fighting a war,  jumping over walls, To evade those that loom, Before they put me  behind bars,  before I meet my downfall,  boom. In a conquered land,  with nothing but scars, With every close call,  I see visions of my tomb. With nothing but a cigar to keep warm As the sun falls. I pray I do not meet my demise. As I close my eyes,  my longing for home Is a weight I cannot lift.  And with every passing day, It becomes a distant dream.   Day by day, I try to survive,  fight for my life. Hoping to get back to my wife,  but haunted b y the unknown,  watching from afar, It's a game Of cat and mouse I must now play. The only way It ends is with me in the grave.

Ordinary me, from below I gaze At extraordinary you, up in the clouds, Shining as bright as the stars. Without a care in the world, but yet Here I stand, fighting these secret wars, The enemy unknown. The target confirmed, The mission confidential. Could it be Our enemies extraterrestrial? Love that transcends the world, about to be found, But yet a war is at rise, two worlds collide. Human and not, Yours and mine. A cosmic war.  Visions I have seen, Raw.  But yet to come been. Till then we move as one, Guided in a celestial way. A path forged from war, A life given to the stars.

Passion,  The feeling and drive on has for something. Do I have passion?  I was asked.  I did not know, Just done what I've been told, for as long as I have known, Never been one to question authority. But here I am, with their deepest sincerity. No mission, no motive,  No passion. Day after day, I live my life on repeat. Following a single tune. No joy, no muse. Born different, But raised indifferent,  The look in their eyes, A passionate gaze, I can only hope was mine. Yet here I stand amazed.

I'll sail through oceans,  I'll conquer mountains, To see you one last time,  Before they put you in the ground. We were just kids,  We didn't know, Stories told, Would be feelings untold. A lonely road I must walk,  Tears in my eyes, On your grave my head lies. Wishing you were here, To keep me warm, Through the night. We were just kids, We didn't know, Stories told, Would be feelings untold. Here I stand, As they put you under, Sorry I couldn't say goodbye, One last time. I find myself screaming your name, As I wake to a brand new day, Feeling's that remain, Forever untold.

At the Pinnacle of the world, Watching from above, Where stories untold, Lies within a distant reach. I'm the ultimate achiever, Achieved ultimate success,  With my peak performance, My effort echoes,  Supreme excellence. At the Pinnacle I stand,  But I can neither command nor demand, After all I gave, After all the graves I dug. A beautiful sight, But at what cost,  At the Pinnacle, Here I stand, Unknown.

Nothing's going to stop my competitive drive, Especially all this negative vibe. Thought I was dead, But here I stand revived. The more I fall, the more I strive. Can't compete with this competitive drive. Five times you put me aside, Now you know why they say I'm divine. Don't you know I was made by design? Dead or alive, I never say die. Every time you fail, you say you're deprived. Am tired of this repetitive vibe, No room for error, no time to decline. Take what's needed to survive, Especially this competitive drive.

I must confess, I'm tired of all these rules I must profess. Caged me indoors like an animal, Feeling depressed. Blame me for the sins of others, Like a corrupt judge, I am depressed. Denied my rights and freedom, I am oppressed. Can't leave this cage I call home Without a test, Like a prisoner in the yard, I am depressed. I feel opposed, And sometimes disposed. Kept aside like I'm nothing, Only called to help with something. Fight for my survival, Fight for the right to live, The right to strive, and the right to ignite. Every night I wake in the middle of the night, Thinking it was all a dream, Only to relive it, Over and over again. This is my hell, But I act like all is well, With a smile on my face, but A depressed mind, I try to mend. I must confess, I must profess.